A Thank You Moment

Wow. I am so so so happy right now. So many people read my last post, I got comments, likes, +1s, it looks like this positive thing really works! So I just wanted to say thank you to everyone.
This blog has changed quite a bit from July to now, and to tell you the truth I am still not sure what I want it to be when it grows up. Every post is like a mystery to me, I know where I start it but I am never sure where it will lead me. They don't always go the direction you had in mind...
One thing that haven't changed is how important this blog has become to me. I am searching for the right words, but my mind keeps coming up with creation, baby and safe place. So I guess that will have to do - It is a safe place for me to be me, to write what I want and think about everything, it is like a baby is so many ways (well, it doesn't pee on you but still), and it is my creation. It is my world, in my words.
It is mine. My little corner of the net. And you all came in and shared it with me. I guess until now I hadn't fully realized how much this blog has grown to mean to me. how much I needed a place of my own.

While I was writing this, and planning on a big dramatic post about parenthood, kids, joy and basically how they don't cancel each other out... Well... The universe had some different plans for me. In Hebrew we have a saying (so fitting for Jews) Man plans and God laughs. And so it was - God laughed.
Hidai had to go to work early in the morning, Ron came home in a bad mood, and things started unrevealing from there - the kids threw our world map into the toilet. The toilet someone didn't flush, after that there was a whole thing about apologies and crying I think we can live without, and after that some cheating and hitting which led to some more apologies and crying, and in the end it all culminated with kids in beds at 7:55pm. An hour and 5 minutes before official bed-time.
Maybe not the best day to write about the joys of motherhood.
Of course it didn't end there, it never does. Hidai arrived home late, Yon took ages to fall asleep, Arsenal had a draw, and the comic-relief bake-off I finally had a chance to watch wasn't as entertaining as I hoped.
And do you think it ended there? no it did not. We still have money issues, health issues, and chocolate addiction issues (I will just leave it at saying you will NOT believe the lows I sank to this week when even the emergency drawer was empty).
So today I cleaned. And talked on the phone with Hidai for about an hour when he was on the bus. And cleaned some more. Oh, and I did some laundry. And waited for the groceries to arrive, so I could finally eat some decent chocolate. And then I realized this is how I spent the whole week - just passing the week until it will be Friday, and February will kindly appear. I somehow missed an entire week. Thinking back now, I can vaguely piece together hours of TV, Candy Crush Saga (very addictive. Don't start) and reading stupid opinions on the internet about everything from the Israeli elections to Women's choices in life (I don't think I was really aware of it, but the internet is filled with crap and self-importance), between laundry, kids duties (I was on kids duties more than usual this week, which meant walking more. Good for the amounts of chocolate I consumed. Bad for everything else), and giving Hidai some attention.
And then, because of course even that wasn't enough, I got future worried. Yes, I know that is not how you say it. But I wasn't worried about NOW, no no, I was worried about 3 years from now, when we will want/need to move Ron to a private secondary school, and how the hell are we supposed to afford that? now, don't get me wrong, it's not really news, it's a known thing, and it's in 3 years. But I was Future worried. Why? Because I forgot the number 1 rule in life - Never (ever, ever) clean while having existential thoughts. Nothing looks better while scrubbing a toilet that is used by 2 unfocused young boys. Nothing.
Things do tend to look better after the house is clean and I've had a shower and half a jar of Nutella. That's the time for existential thoughts. Mine reminded me that life is a journey and blah, blah, blah. That led me, naturally, to sink even lower and eat the baking chocolate, so I could remind myself that, all kidding aside, life is all about moments, and a week like this one that I spent waiting for it to be over, cost me those moments. That, naturally, led me to make a list. These are this week's moments:

The moment Yon jumped into my arms and for the first time shouted "Mummy!" when I picked him up from nursery;
The moment there was sunshine and we didn't need scarfs or hats or gloves;
The moment Ron told me that he is learning Queen's "Don't Stop Me Now" for choir, and we sang it together on the street;
The moment Ron got "Lunchtime Legend";
The moment Yon did Monster (from the muppets) while watching (again) Bohemian Rhapsody on YouTube;
The moment Ron went bird watching in the park with his class;
The moment Ron had a movie & popcorn party in class;
The moment my groceries arrived and the fridge was full of all my favourite food;
The moment we had 50 pounds left from January to move over to February;
The moment Yon went back to playing with other toys except animals in nursery;
the moment we had to bring some baby pictures of Yon to nursery and we had to go over all (okay some. The kid has thousands) his photos to choose 4, and the moment he discovered them. He loved them and was so so proud of them;
The moment we bought our first UK lottery ticket;
The moment Yon just said the names of the letters on a sign outside (that one is here because Yon does not show any interest in learning, and when Ron was his age he read Hebrew perfectly and started English. Yon just likes to torment me);
The moment Hidai went for after-work beers and drank cider (a first for both);
The moment I threw caution to the wind and entered the scary grocery store next to us to buy milk (and then the moment Hidai budget the 1.5 pounds as Scary milk);
The moment Ron and I played Mario Kart WII and I won (does not happen often);
The moment I found a frog under my pillow (a rubber one don't worry);
The moment Hidai and I danced to our song in the living room;
The moment we decided to open our last bottle of good wine;
The moment Yon and I were walking home from nursery and he took my hand in his and said let's talk mummy...
The moment I opened my computer and saw how many people read and loved my last post.

Yon and I without a hat, or gloves or a scarf!